#30: Confusing Possibilities.

2010-07-13T11:20:00.000-07:00

If it is not obvious by the large gap between entries here, there isn't much I have got around to. Saying something really is so much easier than doing it because so much can stand in your way: money, relationships (with parents, pets, friends, lovers, even jobs), and my personal fav: good ol' fashioned doubts and fears. I want to conquer that.

I'll skip the minor deets here, and just say that on a whim, I applied to the New School for General Studies a few months ago and upon receiving my acceptance letter, my list seemed to have a sudden jump start. I was over the moon, of course but the dark cloud of fear soon set in. I deferred my enrollment, which give me until September 2011 to start classes and make a decision. That pretty much brings us up to date as to where I am right now.

I don't know WHAT to do. I've dreamed forever of living in New York and now that I have a perfect excuse for re-locating to the big city, the reality of it scares the shit out of me. This down-trodden economy makes college-going a really scary decision right now. Between the many people I know who still have yet to find employment post-graduation and the re-occuring nightmares I have of drowning alive in student debt, I'm about ready to chicken out and call it quits on the whole college experience.

On top of this, the program I got accepted to is very liberal - I will pretty much be creating my own major. Does this sound right up my ally? HELL YES. But realistically: is this going to guarantee me a career as a result for all my hard work? Well, that is a gamble...one I'm not sure I'm brave enough to take.

That's it for now...I just want to ad despite my confused and scared state I've been having an excellent summer. There might even be plans for an attempt at surfing ahead!!!!

Que voulez-vous de la vie?

2010-01-21T22:07:00.000-08:00

Things I want to do (subject to change!):
1) Speak French fluently
2) Start sewing again (which at this point should just be listed as "learn to sew" considering I haven't touched a sewing machine since I was a juinor in high school).
3) Learn to knit.
4) Take yoga classes at a studio (there a quite a few I want to check out).
5) ARCHERY!
6) Play the accordian.
7) Try surfing.
8) Have some of my poetry published (I am on a temporary poety hiatus right now, so this can wait, I think.)
9) Visit the cafes, coffee houses, restaurants, and breakfast joints I've always wanted to go in to...
10) Learn basic Italian
11) Try zumba.
12) Take a striptease class
13) ...and one of those "pin up girl" classes, where you dress like a vintage 1940s pinup girl and have professional pics taken!
14) Join WWOOF (This could also help me knock #'s 21, 23, 24, 25)
15) Get into photography again (need: digital camera)
16) Make a short film.
17) Go to Frenchtown NJ to check out 2 Buttons Imports (and explore town a little, too)
18) Try to cook my way through a vegan cookbook.
19) Fix up my bike; try to use in in place of car as much as possible.
20) Go to a yoga festival
21) Travel more
22) Experiment with Meditation
23) Go to an Alpaca farm
24) Learn the basics on how to grow a garden
25) ...and compost for it
26) Learn how to French braid my hair.
29) Make my own jewelry (either metalworking or beading)
30) Live in New York